A Date With Laughing Gas
by Stephanie Smith
Smoke and embers kindle my heart
My love, you’re such good pain
Should I breathe it all into me?
Contradictions swim inside of me like a lit cigarette near a
puddle of gasoline
Burn me Oh Burn me Burn me some more
Take that torch and put me to sleep
Wake me up NOW!
Turn the lights off
Close all the doors
We gotta hide cuz they don’t like us together
They don’t believe we can be and so they abuse us
As this darkness breathes
Darkness feeds on my brain in the night when I’m most vulnerable
I wonder am I a human or a soul?
Soul with body not body with soul
In too deep
In Out In Out
I’m on the outside looking in and I know God’s watching me
God and Love Devil and Hate
Both dancing in the shadows, afraid to show their true selves
Did I scare you?
Did I make you laugh?
God, I’m so bored So alive So in love So alone
It’s a cruel world It’s an abstract world
Heartless fucking world
Goodbye now world
I got a date with a soul much like my own
We’re gonna swim the ocean and let it all go…So Ha!
Stephanie Smith is just getting back into the swing of things after not publishing poetry in almost a decade. She has work set to appear in Yellow Mama and Blood Moon Rising.