by pablo vision
when this shit comes back – that is when you know you are fucked – she ain't got no hair on her head and she ain't got no eyebrows – and you keep telling her she looks pretty – but she looks like a freak – covered in bruises – makes strangers feel sick – makes them turn away – best not to think about things like this – a seven year old freak – and she knows it – and you tell her that she will make it this time too – that she is so strong and so brave and so good – and jesus is looking out for her again – but you hardly have the strength to go through this again yourself – and you know it is not looking good this time – and you know there is no jesus – and if there is a jesus – he is one sick cruel fucker – or he just does not give a fuck – god's damaged goods – the sins of the father - she can hear your encouraging words – but she can see the heavy lines on your brow – and your red eyes – and she can hear the kind but broken dishonesty in your words – and even at seven years old - she knows too – that she is going to die – she even says: 'don't worry mummy - i know i might die this time - it's ok - don't be sad.' – and then try not to cry yourself – (just you fucking try)– and everyone is saying how brave you all are – like as if you have any choice in fighting or living this thing – this mutation of cells – yes - hear that loud and clear you fucking jesus lovers – the mutation of fucking cells – and they are organising this marathon – and they are collecting money – and there are posters – with pictures of your little girl – smiling – but with the subtle shadow of death on her face – and eyes - without eyelashes - pleading to the guilt of strangers – (just one of many tragic cases – too many to help – what is the point? –– i don't want to think about sick shit like this when i'm trying the best i can to hold my own fucking life together – why can't these fuckers go away and die with some dignity? – why did i have to look at that face? i wonder if she is dead already?) - and you go to sleep knowing that whatever money raised will be too late – there is no marrow – she is not strong enough – so a fucking memorial fund – to go into research – so that other poor unlucky damaged girls of the future may benefit – because one thing is for sure – that cunt jesus ain't gonna come down and rescue any of his little children.
pablo vision occasionally updates pablo vision. with obscenity, blasphemy, links to recently published work, and information about stuff in print, audio, art, reviews, and films. He has remained faithful to the same woman for a number of years, but he is always eager to test his resolve in this matter with attractive gothic girls.